Tomorrow is the first day of daycare for Elijah and my first day back at work. This post won't be too long because I want to get in as much time as I can with my love bug but I just wanted to vent some of my anxiety about a HUGE change that is happening in less than 24 hours.
I think daycare is great. I really do...I think it is great for children to not only socialize with other babies but to learn how to be comfortable around all sorts of different people besides mom and dad. I know that Elijah has GREAT teacher who has taught daycare for a LOOONNNG time and she loves these kids like her own grandkids (her words actually). He will be immersed in an engaging and stimulating environment and be safe and cared for while I am at work.
This transition is hard for me. I am so freakin' attached to this kid its not funny. For the last 11 months he has been my world. Now I have to cut one little string of attachment so I can work. I sometimes worry that maybe he might not be as good of a person because I wasn't with him all day everyday. Silly, yes, but a fear nonetheless. I am sad. I am emotional. I have guilt. I have anxiety. I am DREADING tomorrow but I know that it has to happen and no matter what I get to be the one to pick him up and take him back home where I get to spend precious time with him.
I have to get off this so I can go stare at my beautiful boy while he sleeps. I will hold it together. I will. I wi...nope. Nope, nevermind. I probably won't. WAH.
I'm sorry you have to make this choice because I know it's not easy. You listed the benefits, and like you said before when you're around him you'll make every minute count. I know this is hard, but just like everything else you'll look back at this in a month and it'll be much easier. We have the best jobs too because you're never too far away and he'll always have the same schedule as us for breaks and things. It'll get easier Jess :)
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